i can’t believe we’ve been counting for
how many years for at least seven years
and there is still so much to it such depth
even when i just allow myself to count to 50
the feeling of release is always there
when the focus is there
the feeling of release is always
there
there’s still so much i feel like i need
to say about it so much that it feels impossible
to explain it all
and i still believe in it
after all these years i still know it works
i still use it and it works
i use other methods too of course
but silent counting is one i return to again
and again
and sometimes i do doubt it
because it can be
a ego trip
a job for the ego
the ego wants you think
you have to try to get to
god
to take a journey to get to
god
but you don’t have to count to 10,000
to get to god
just count to one
just switch the focus to god
you have to be careful the ego
doesn’t get in the way
the counting doesn’t become
anxiety inducing
or competitive within yourself
or a value scale
don’t let it become a value scale
because every second with god
is eternity
and don’t let the ego make you think
you have
to count to a certain number
to get that high
to get that god high
you don’t the
god high is always right
there waiting for you
and counting is a door to that
the door never closes.
its not about getting something
or getting something
or achieving something
its about how you feel when you do it
be sure to pay attention to how you feel
when you do it
when you count but you still
feel stressed
you’re not getting the effects
you must focus fully on the numbers
which means all
every single other things fall away
which means the past and future
don’t exist
this is difficult
it requires practice
it requires dedication
to focus fully on something
any one thing and not the myriad
infinite other possibilities
of things you can focus on
and that is why to count
to train your focus
to build your ability to choose where
you focus
to train your ability to be aware
of your thoughts and how they make you feel
to be
aware of how you feel when
there aren’t any thoughts
or when you’re not running with them
or letting them run you.
that’s the reason to count
its to experience the infinite now
and when you
commune with the infinite now
you know that you don’t need
a single thing
the counting will bring you the
things you want
undoubtedly your material life will
change
but don’t let that be reason
if you’re doing it for that reason
if you’re counting because you
want something to go a certain way
it won’t work
count to not care how things turn out
count to detach from outcome
and things will certainly go your way
but you’ll be fine either way
count to be fine either way
count to the bottom of the sea
count to become the valley.
count as an offering to god
imagine each number is a ruby
or an emerald that you’re giving god
to say thanks
you’re counting your blessings
and you could never count high enough
because there are too many blessings
in each moment
to name
let alone in a lifetime.
what you chant you become and
when you count
you become the infinite
you already are the infinite
but when you count
you come into alignment with your
infinite self
you understand the
infinite self
when you release all that is finite.
when you release the material
and you must
release a lot
there are a lot of beliefs
ingrained in you
a lot of systems
ingrained in you
a lot of habits a lot of
expectations
judgement
fear
release it
if even for 100 seconds
be free
zoom out
become the watcher
become the one who is aware
become the one who is free.