today ihave the courage today i have the
courage not to look at the thing i keep looking at
to remembe that its made up and mostly because im bored
today im looking at ne w things todayi have
the courage to be happy
today i have the courage to be happy
to turn my attention away from something bothering me
and put it on mso
something else to tell a new story to choose where i palyce
place my attention
so grateful to be here on this day
so grateful for this day
to get to live to get to be me
to get to feel good to get to feel
good to get to
the courage to feel good the courage to
feel good the courage to feel good
the couragge to be happy today intend
to celebrate all that’s greate me
for me today i intend to celebrate my charmed life
today i intend to take a stna
stand and not be a victim of my thoughts todya
i stnad up to my thougths today i tue
today i enjoy today i love today i love today i love
today i choose love today i choose love and i love
that i gget
get to today
today my day is booked and i love that i get to
i love that i
i love that i have new ideas i love
today i have the courage to be proud of who ia m
today i have the courage to be proud of who i am
to do me and not care what
anyone else thinks to cele
today i have the courage and i’m celebragting the
courage
i’m celebrating how good it feels to feel good
i’m celebrating how good my life feels so
happy
how happy i am in my life
and i’m letting go of thinking about
what othes think
others think about me people who
i dont even care what they think about me
and i am aware of the energy
today i have the courage to be aware of the
energy and how im directing it
what its fixated on and today i have the courage to
love myself to choose my own value and know it doesnt exist outside
of me today i’m grateful for the contrast that
ehlps
helps me focus todayi’m
i have the courage to be happy and fulfilled in my own
life and send the signal of love
and let that be it
todayi am
i am aware of my thoughts and the affect they have
on my life today i have the courage to look at something else
today i have the courage to choose
today i have the courage to choose me
so grateful i get to choose what i look at and today is the
day i make a switch i knkow a
i allowed myself to get lazy in my thinking
becuse we live in such a smal microcosm
of space and people
by i can
but i can feel my universe expanding
and i can feel the verison of me that cares
slipping away
so grateful to get to do the work
to understand the emotions and just look at them
why do i care becuase iw ant to
feel that feeling of community
and i know that i dont need any person or persons
to participate in that i can choose it for me
and i never have to fixate on
if someone likes me
in fact i prefer they didn’t
not really haha but irea
i reallly dont care
i’m not going to change
or be a different person
this is who ia m and i love it
and i dont h
care what others think and i’m
creat
grateful for this contrast becaus it
really hepls
helps me work through this
and i’m grateful to get to do
it get to address it
so grateful for pops go
so grateful for coffee
for bars
that we can afford any grocery we want!
that life is good for me and i’ll never
be poor again
that i love my house and my wife
i guess i just wnat to get to the why
why
they why of why i care???
but i know i never have to get to the why
just focus on something else
and it will go way
away
by
why does my mind keep going back to what
one person thinks of me
and gevore
before it was that person it was other persons?????
why do i care so much???
wanat to be accepted want to be loved watn t
to be revered
want value applied to my life from an outside source??
validation from outside source??
and then certain persons i dont care at all
becuase i deem lthem not less than me but i guess not
better than me
so i guess that is what it is
deeming someinog else beter thn e
me then thinkin in eed acceptane from them
to be a good person
to hve value
an di’m so grateful for this becausee
it is really ehlping me
overcome
a life long resistant thought
upper limiiting belief
that i need validation from toehrs
i lovet
doing this work and having the courage to be happy
as i am i love that the contrast helps me focus
i hate how much time and energy ive had to spend on this
absolutely hate it
hate it and hate this about myself
that im like this i hate that im like this
always looking to other people na dthis has
been a months long saga!!!
just dont touch it
just dont but
put the energy there and choose me
choose me choose how i feel choose my own celebration of life
choose to focus on me
grateful to do this work and
have something to fous on
a point of focus a point of focus
which is the courage to be happy
and proud of my own life the courage to be
happy and proud o f my own life
and release ever thinking about what
antoher thinks about me
i know this has been an additcion of mine
for awhile and im excited to see it slip away
im excietd to embody the new version of myself
with the courage to like myself!
to love myself no matter what
to be secure
to stand up to my thoughts
i am secreu
i am tired of writing that
it feels more lame every time i write it haha
i can’t believe this has been going on since the summer
so fuccking embarassing and why
and addictive thought that i can choose
to stop thinking i love that i get to
i love that its easy just let it go
have the courage to let it go