god is lavish unfailing abundance

do i believe this do i know this
am i willing to

align with this knowledge?
or do i insist on looking for the worst in the world
getting hung up on what i don’t want to see

but i’m trying to #dothework
and i see things that i don’t understand
or that i feel are unjust and i feel

i should ‘do something about’
but feel powerless

i see poc fighting racism
and then participating in it
against another group
and it fills me with
anger and disbelief

it makes me feel like its all
just a farce and a bunch of people not
wanting to take responsibility
for the

the manifestations of those thoughts
but i know that is the white people
who dont want to take responsibility

but then i see i black woman
use the word gypsy

well she participated
in a fashion show
in which that word was in the brand name
of one of the labels

and its like ….

really????

but what can i do?
multiple peole commented like
um???

and she didn’t reply
idk its just so maddening
like how tf you out here
so called fighting for equailty
but yet you are blindly
using slurs and not even knowing it?

perpetuating racism against another group??????

and clearly you dont care?
or are not inclined to inform yourself??

but then its like
is this really my problem?

is this what i’m getting hung up on today
and its like i would rather

just neve think
about this stuff
but then that’s just bme

me turning the blind eye

to blatant racism
like wtf
and of course no poc spoke up about it
on the post
no one addressed it
and this is supposed to be an ‘anti-racism’ space?????

anyway
god is lavish unfailing abundance

i guess what the mantra is telling me
is to let it be and let god

it’s not my job
i can leave it alone
poc deal with enough
they don’t need ww
correcting them

i can leave it up to god
because god is lavish
unfailing abundance

the rich omnipresent substance of
the universe

this all providing source
of infinite prosperity
is individualized as me

the reality of me

the work only works when i feel the feeling
when i totally align with the mantra

so i have to find a way to
#dothework

and still feel good
still feel the infinite connection to god
so as long as i can sustain my connection
to source

i can do the work
but if i am disconnected from source

then my only work
is to reconnect

because without that connection
i am not healed
i am

my trauma and if i am not connected to
source then i am not putting source out into the world

and my work comes first
my connection to the god within comes
first

because i have nothing to offer the world
if not from a place of connection to cour

source

it is this connection that helps me
remember compassion
empathy and love

it is this connection to source that allows
me to enter all spaces with love
and it is

this connection to source that allows me
to send a loving non action to this situation

its up to me to decide when action is needed
and it doesn’t have to be every time

i can choose i can choose
not to inflict myself on someone

i know my action is
more powerful than my non action
and i also don’t have to

believe everything someone else says

just because someone says
this is what you should be doing
doesn’t mean that is true

that is the version they’ve arrived at
based on their own life experience

and i know that my number one

goal and only job

is to connect to the source within
and from there i can ‘help’ others

but only after i’ve ‘helped’ myself

god is lavish
unfailing abundance the rich omnipresent
substance of the universe

this all providing source of
infinite prosperity
is individualized as me
the reality of me

god is lavish
unfailing abundance the rich omnipresent
substance of the universe
this all providing source of infinite prosperity
is individualized as me
the reality of me

god is lavish
unfailing abundance
god is lavish
unfailing abundance

it only works if i stick to
it it conly
only works if i stick to it

if i feel the feeling of it
if my

whole self resonates with it
with the truth
my whole self resonates with the truth

god is lavish
unfailing abundance

meaning there is enough
for everyone
and that it doesn’t

fail

anyone it’s
not held back from anyone
it’s there for all

the rich omnipresent substance of the universe

god is in all things
and is always there

for
everyone

this all providing source
of infinite prosperity is individualized as me
the reality of me

just return to the mantra and
the mantra will solve it
it’s not up to me to solve
and i don’t have to worry

i don’t have to listen
to the voices around me
i don’t have to listen to them
i don’t

have to take what they say
as truth

i do think that they dont want to take
responsibility for their own thoughts

but i know
every time i write and think that
that it’s me

not wanting to take responsibility
for my own thoughts

for the ramifications of my
own ingrained thought pattersn

i take responsibility
and the number one way to take responsibility
is to address my own trauma

to come into alignment
myself to allow myself

myself first to come into alignment
with the vision of god