do i believe this do i know this
am i willing to
align with this knowledge?
or do i insist on looking for the worst in the world
getting hung up on what i don’t want to see
but i’m trying to #dothework
and i see things that i don’t understand
or that i feel are unjust and i feel
i should ‘do something about’
but feel powerless
i see poc fighting racism
and then participating in it
against another group
and it fills me with
anger and disbelief
it makes me feel like its all
just a farce and a bunch of people not
wanting to take responsibility
for the
the manifestations of those thoughts
but i know that is the white people
who dont want to take responsibility
but then i see i black woman
use the word gypsy
well she participated
in a fashion show
in which that word was in the brand name
of one of the labels
and its like ….
really????
but what can i do?
multiple peole commented like
um???
and she didn’t reply
idk its just so maddening
like how tf you out here
so called fighting for equailty
but yet you are blindly
using slurs and not even knowing it?
perpetuating racism against another group??????
and clearly you dont care?
or are not inclined to inform yourself??
but then its like
is this really my problem?
is this what i’m getting hung up on today
and its like i would rather
just neve think
about this stuff
but then that’s just bme
me turning the blind eye
to blatant racism
like wtf
and of course no poc spoke up about it
on the post
no one addressed it
and this is supposed to be an ‘anti-racism’ space?????
anyway
god is lavish unfailing abundance
i guess what the mantra is telling me
is to let it be and let god
it’s not my job
i can leave it alone
poc deal with enough
they don’t need ww
correcting them
i can leave it up to god
because god is lavish
unfailing abundance
the rich omnipresent substance of
the universe
this all providing source
of infinite prosperity
is individualized as me
the reality of me
the work only works when i feel the feeling
when i totally align with the mantra
so i have to find a way to
#dothework
and still feel good
still feel the infinite connection to god
so as long as i can sustain my connection
to source
i can do the work
but if i am disconnected from source
then my only work
is to reconnect
because without that connection
i am not healed
i am
my trauma and if i am not connected to
source then i am not putting source out into the world
and my work comes first
my connection to the god within comes
first
because i have nothing to offer the world
if not from a place of connection to cour
source
it is this connection that helps me
remember compassion
empathy and love
it is this connection to source that allows
me to enter all spaces with love
and it is
this connection to source that allows me
to send a loving non action to this situation
its up to me to decide when action is needed
and it doesn’t have to be every time
i can choose i can choose
not to inflict myself on someone
i know my action is
more powerful than my non action
and i also don’t have to
believe everything someone else says
just because someone says
this is what you should be doing
doesn’t mean that is true
that is the version they’ve arrived at
based on their own life experience
and i know that my number one
goal and only job
is to connect to the source within
and from there i can ‘help’ others
but only after i’ve ‘helped’ myself
god is lavish
unfailing abundance the rich omnipresent
substance of the universe
this all providing source of
infinite prosperity
is individualized as me
the reality of me
god is lavish
unfailing abundance the rich omnipresent
substance of the universe
this all providing source of infinite prosperity
is individualized as me
the reality of me
god is lavish
unfailing abundance
god is lavish
unfailing abundance
it only works if i stick to
it it conly
only works if i stick to it
if i feel the feeling of it
if my
whole self resonates with it
with the truth
my whole self resonates with the truth
god is lavish
unfailing abundance
meaning there is enough
for everyone
and that it doesn’t
fail
anyone it’s
not held back from anyone
it’s there for all
the rich omnipresent substance of the universe
god is in all things
and is always there
for
everyone
this all providing source
of infinite prosperity is individualized as me
the reality of me
just return to the mantra and
the mantra will solve it
it’s not up to me to solve
and i don’t have to worry
i don’t have to listen
to the voices around me
i don’t have to listen to them
i don’t
have to take what they say
as truth
i do think that they dont want to take
responsibility for their own thoughts
but i know
every time i write and think that
that it’s me
not wanting to take responsibility
for my own thoughts
for the ramifications of my
own ingrained thought pattersn
i take responsibility
and the number one way to take responsibility
is to address my own trauma
to come into alignment
myself to allow myself
myself first to come into alignment
with the vision of god