only i can make the choice to feel good and i can do it
now i can choose to feel the at feeling now
and let the rest go
i just wish i knew
why am i feeling so bad?
and thinking about a photo of me
from two days ago when
i looked so happy
makes me feel sad
i feel rejected by the world
i feel
out of place in the world i feel
shunned by the world i feel
unworthy of the world i feel
dead to the world
i guess that’s my solution
die to the outside world
how could one thing
one event
one
gesture
send me spiraling
because i got caught up caring
and that’s all there is
i did what i said iw asn’t
wasn’t going to do
what i kept on thinking
about that i wasn’t going to
what you think
about you bring about
whether you want it or not
and that’s all
it’s a simple
matter of perception
it’s all perception
and the energy helps me
the energy helps me transmute
the energy helps me get there
helps me get there
get within
its a always a woman
who helps me get there
helps me go within
and i kept thinking
i’m not going to let it happen
this time
and it did because i thought
about what i wasn’t going to do
i’ve learned enough to know
not to care not to care
not to focus ont hos
thos things
on validation from other people
on
validation from other people
things outside of me
it feels like so much
old energy coming up
exactly what i tried to push away
and of course
i attract it
what is the new energy i am attracting??
the energy of me the energy of loving myself
of not looking outside of me for validation
that is what life is helping me do
life is helping me
life is helping me see the
the vibration i am sending out
and i know i can always wipe that slate clean
i can emit the clean vibration
it’s only ever me and i can
instead of thinking about what i
don’t want
i can focus on what i do a
dn i know
and i know that life is always helping me
life is always el
helping me turn the energy around
an up and a down
and up and
an up and a down and i’m so glad
i have this place to come
ta
and talk it out with myse
f
i
i can always come here and commune with god
i canalways
always come here and feel the
energy
energy commune with the energy
talk to the energy
know the energy feelt he
the energy and know that it’s all
just
energy
it’s only ever me it’s only ever me
it’s only ever me and i’m so grateful i know this
so grateful the
the flow of life
helps me choose
so grateful the flow
of life helps me choose
i love myself and i love thatl ife is
is good forme i love that there is so much to love about
me and that’s
where my focus lies i know that life
is helping me ask
helping me
shore up a viibration
life is helping me
all my life experience ishelping
helping me
helping me be addicted to myself
to loveing loving myself
to my vortex to focusing
on how i want to feel
not how i don’t want to feel
i love that i get to feel good i love
that i get to feel good and i ght
tha i get to to do thei
this work i love that
i’ve let that go
and today i am communing with myself
so grateful the contast helps
contrast helps me focus
so gratefl to love to love who ia m
and
the contrast always elps
helps me remember who i am
how i want to feelwho i
who i amwan
want to be how i want to go through
this is he onl
the only work this is the only
work and
i don’t have to care
i don’t have to care
what anyone else thinks
or how anyone else feels i get to choose
i get to choose to trun
turn the focus
within
so grateful to have coem
far enough in life to know
how to
stay focused within
to choose the feeling within
to choose me
to own up to my feelsing
feelings to
admit
yes i have feelings and i’m
trying to bury
them
i’m trying to push them away
because i don’t want to feel
attached i don’t
want to care aobut
about someone else’s actions
and what happens exactly that
i can feel that
what i kept thinking about that
i didn’t want
is what i brought about and i am
brave enought o t
to turn that energy around i am
brave engouth
enough o love to love me no matter what i am
brave enough to focuson what
what i do what
want
which is to love
ti’s al
it’s always easier to love to love
to love to love
i know the reason
it’s because i started caring
i
didn’t want to care
so i started caring
and it’
i know it’s just as easy to ocus
focus on what i do what
want which is having a good
easy life
without
distractions i love that
i know better i love that life experience teaches
i know that it’s only ever me
it’s only ever me i know that
life can only ever reflect me
i feel the god energy coming back into me
i know it left
i gave it away
but now i summoned it back
i’m so grateful i know the
feeling of i know the feleing of
feeling of me and i knkow that
that the love i seek
is always within
that it’s me
who gets to make the choice
to love
me i get to make the choice to love me
i feel empowered by that choice
more so than iwould
i would ever feel
seeking
something from someone else
and it’s easy to remember
it’s easy to
to celebrate the
contrast that helps me focus it’s easy to
feel good when i know that life
is always on my side
i know
with a down comes and up
and vice versa
i know that i’m
pushing down feelings
instead of owning up to them
i can just own up to them
yes
i
feel
feelings
but
i can still have the
upper hand on them
i can always trust the here and now