i feel like i’m getting back to that place

and all it takes is focus
and determination

so grateful i realized
that the feeling i wanted was my certainty of
self of course

not the validation of another
and i’m so grateful to have to the time and space

to do this work so grateful to get to do this work

the feeling the feeling the feeling and all
i can ever do is keep reminding myself

reminding myself of the feeling
and just so grateful to the contrast that helps me
focus that helps me

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