i want to feel good

i want to have a good day
i want to enjoy life i want to enjoy the
day i want to have fun i want to feel
good in my life i want to have fun
i want to have a good day i want to feel good

but i dn’t i feel like trash
i feel bad
for no reason

i feel over it i feel over life
i don’t see any point

what’s the point
it’s just the same bullshit day in and day out
why even try
why even care

why even bother why even care
oh well i guess i can just check out and not
care about anything i can just check out

i don’t have to care about anything
i don’t have to try to feel good

it will come again
it will come again some day i can
just let go and trust
and when i let go i feel better

because i’m not trying
not forcing i know there’s nothing
i can force
nothing i can control
besides how much i let go and don’t try to control

nothing is fun
nothing is worth doing

all i want to do is lay in bed and sleep

i just feel so mad
so mad about everything
everything that happens
or doesn’t happen

just an underlying
feeling of anger

about everything
and i hate it
i hate feeling this way
mad about everything

and i don’t know why
and it sucks and it makes me mad hahah

and ther’es never enough coffee
until its too much

life is so pointless

life is so pointless
life is pointless