Month: June 2019

not dig but
allow that feeling to rise to the
surface
the more i feel the

dried up
papier mache
crack away revealing
the creamy

infinite

middle

to look for what i want to see to resonate
with what i want to see to create the version i prefer
to arrange the particles to allow the particles to
arrange themselves

why am i here why am i here
i’m here to practice the feeling
of how i want to feel here to feel good to allow myself
to feel good to feel the energy of life flowing through me

so grateful to feel good
to be allowed to be able
to thhrn

turn the boat to know that i cn always
turn the boat i can always feel good i can always relax into the e
here and now i can wlays releax into the here and now

i’m here to do the work i’m here to feel good
i’m here to focus
on me on who i am on all that i have to be grateful for
to feel the feeling i prefer

i’m here to feel good i’m here to feel good

what am i here for what am i here for

i’m here i’m just here for nothing
i am

that’s it i am here because i am

i’m here because i am
and i know that i can get out of the way of anything else
i can relax in the flow of well being
right here and now
i can relax into the flow

i relax into amness

into gratitude
for everything that is for
everything that is for my beautiful life
and my beautiful wife

and tramily
and home
i love
everything that is an i love
i love where i am right now

am i here to rush through this
or am i here to connect

well admittedly i’ve been feeling kind
of

incredulous about this work
i mean yeah you can affect things
but ultimately

there are things you really can affect
with your expectation
like there’s too much

i guess wrapped up in the other person’s
vibration
i guess that makes sense because what i’m thinking
about usually has to do with

other
people’s
health
and well
being

which i know i can’t affect
i mean i can
through inspiration
but ultimately
if they are well

is on them and while it affects me
it only affects me because of attachments

my attachment to them
or my attachment to other’s well being
because i want the people i love

to be well and if they aren’t
i feel like i am not well

and i feel like what is the point of
every trying when its just one
tragedy after another
i mean what is even the point

i guess the point is that life goes on
bc i’m not going to kms
so

gotta figure something out and so i come here
to cope

not that my life is bad
but i feel bad for others
and i feel guilty
enjoying life when other’s can’t

like what is the point
of celebrating
when other’s can’t

it’s not fair
it’s not right
it’s not

fun.

but at the same time
would those close to me want me to suffer
no

would they want me to suffer because they
are suffering no i wouldn’t
want that for someone else

i know they wouldn’t want that
expect that

so grateful for the coping mechanisms i have
for the ability to deal
for the knowledge i have to fe

for the connection to the inner self
to the

frequencyd

i need to read more
get some new ideas
new reminders
about

who i am

what i am

what i am

doing
here.

so grateful for improvement
so grateful for life
to for the flow
of well being so grateful

to hear good news!
so grateful the better it gets so
grateful i can resonate with that
i can

take my own advice

so grateful to take my own advice
to live

to enjoy life while i have it to feel good
now to tap into the

everything ness
to become everything
so grateful that i am everything

so grateful to feel energized to want to work to want to feel the flow
to want to feel the flow
to want to feel the
flow flowing
through me the

to feel the flow
flowing through me

to feel good now to feel good now
to feel good now t

i’m here now i’m here now
i’m here
now i’m

here now i’m here now
i’m here now i’m here

i’m here

what am i here for
i have no idea
no fucking nide

idea
no one knows
and then we die
and then more
are born
who don’t knokw any

anymore than the last
or maybe they do know
when they
we

we
are born
but then
we forget

because those around us
train us out of it
becuase they

they were trained away from it
but really children
are the closest things

to god

i’m hre to
here to realize here to remember
here to know here to know
who
i am what i am

i can take my own advice
and get hung up on the good

i’m hung up on the good parts and i am
aware of the version i paly out

play out in my mind

i am aware of the version i play
out in my mind and i know that is allway

always
without a doubt up to me
i know this and i know
that everything in life
ig

gives me a chance to know this

to be aware of who i am
what i am and the version i create
in my mind

it’s alawys up to me
no matter what
is

‘happening’

what is happening
within is always up to me
and the inner world is the only world

i love that i know this

i’m allowed to celebrate i’m allowed to celebrate life

there is so much life to live!
there is so much to celebrate and i know that
my expectation

CAN AND DOES

make a difference
i know this
i’ve been here before i know i can do this

feel ing life feeling the focus
feeling the effects of an old vibraion
an feeling the potential of the new one t
eh

the next one

grateful to always be able to come
back here come back to the here

and now return to the magick life

i know what i am and i know that
i can relax in that knowledge i can ease and flow in the knowledge

i can even celebrate this knowledge
i can always celebrate this here and now
that i’m here that i have life
that i get to live the life i love
i love that i get to live
the life i love i love that i get to feel good now
that i get to connect that i get to

tune into and protect my energy
and today i can ease and flow today i can allow
today i am aware of the frequency

i am aware of the frequency i am aware of the flow
of life and i am allowing iit flow

perfectly through me

i love that life is easy i love that life can be easy
and even when it’s hard it can be easy
when you just stop and allow

i love that i get to celebrate this day i love
that i get to celebrate this life
with my wife

i love that life

is good i love that life is good i love
that life is good
i love that life

is good i love that
life is good i love
that life
is good

what am i focused on today
i’m focused on the flow on the flow
flowing through me

on the truth on the truth of life
that ig et t
get to choose that i get to take
my own advice and choose
i love that i get to choose i love
that i get to choose

that i gt to feel the ease and flow
flow of life and know that i can

never force it only allow it
only allow it only decide to feel good now

i make the choice to feel good now
i make the choice in this here and now
i make the choice

i know that no matter what i can
always choose to feel the connection
with god to feel the feeling of connection
with god with

connection with self i love that i get to jump into this moment
get to jump into this here and now i love that
get to

so grateful for this day
to feel good to feel

energized to feel optimistic
to feel good about life to
love and love life
to have a friend
to like where i live
to love my house

so grateful i love my life
and i have so much to be grateful for

so grateful for so much to be grateful for!!

so grateful to want to do this work
to feel ok with feeling good to

know that life is long and there’s still
so much to experience and love
to allow life to flow through me
i’m allowing life

to flow through me

i’m allowing life to flow through me

i’m allowing life

to flow through me

i’m allowing life to flow
through me

i’m allowing life to flow
through me

i’m allowing life to feel good
i’m allowing life to flow through me

i’m allowing the release i’m alloowng
the god energy to lfow
flow through me i

i’m allowing myself to
align with the version i prefer
and remember who i am

remember what i am

remember its a frequency
remember that tiss’ just
particles and celebrate knowing this
celebrate alignment

celebrate the god self
it feels good to feel god present
in this moment to know that this
moment is god to know that

this moment is a simulation
and it’s created by me

what am i here for?

to sink in to turn on
turn on

i’m here to turn on
to tune in i’m here to tune in
to the inner world and to drop
out of the world of

illusion
to drop out of the matrix
and remember who i am
to remember who i really am
and to appreciate this day

i appreciate this
day this oment
moment so grateful for this day
for this moment for everything ih ave

for my blissful life so grateful
to get to enjoy
a blissful life
so grateful to enjoy
a blissful life
i love

living my life i love that
llife is good i love

that i can always allow life to flow
through me that i can always tap into the
frequency i can always allow life
to flow through me i can always

allow life to flow through me i can
always align i can always make the choice i can always make the choice

align with the choice and know its me
i know that part of it is not looking at it
and just allowing i allow life to flow through me i knkow
that there is always

way more

than enough i love that there is always more
than enough i love thatl ife
always

feels good i love that
life always feels good i love
that life

i’m here t

i’m here to allow life
i’m here to totally get out
of the way
and just

be i’m here to just be
i’m here to just be i

i’m here to just allow life to flow
to connect with the frequency
i’m here to feel the frequency flowing through me

i’m here to connect to focus
to allow to

milk the feeling of feeling pretty good today
of feeling optimistic about life

to feel good to believe in myself
i’m here to remember how to believe in myself
to connect to the feeling of blieving

believing in myself to say yes
and thank you and nokw that i’m

i am

to know that i am a
magnet for

whatever i want

i know i know
i know and i can alays ch

always choose knwoing
i can always choose knowing
i can always choose the inner world

and i always have that

i always have the inner world
and ic an always

reside there
and there is no end to the fullness

and greatness

of the inner world!

so grateful for what i have
for the smells of outside for the windows open
for this old hoodie

so grateful for weed
for my desk and my twinkle lights
so

grateful to sit at my desk so grateful for
my chair so grateful for the knowledge

i know that god is infinite and life
is infinitely flowing to and through me
i ilove that
i get to choose the flow
get to know the

get to choose the inner knowledge
get to connect to the inner knowledge

get to do this spiritual work
get to do this work
get to do this work

so grateful to connect so grateful for this here and now
for my wife and my perfect life
so grateful to get back in to the flow of things
to get back into the flow to allow
myself to feel good to take a break

to get back in the flow of things
it feels good to get back in the flow jump back in the flow
allow life to unfold in the flow to allow myself to feel
good so grateful to work on my work
on my projects and know that life
is flowing perfectly

i’ mhere
to focus to remember who i am
to jm

jump into the magick and to
reconnect with the gratitude of what
i already have
so grateful for this moment
for this here and now

so grateful so grateful for everything
i have so grateful for my life for my

partner for good food
to be able to sit
and enjoy life
to

to be able to speak
and walk
and hug and love
and communicate

so grateful for everything ih ave right now

so grateful for everything ih ave

riight now

i’m here to focus
i’m here to focus on what i know
and milk the feeling of feeling good

it feels good to allow life
to celebrate feeling alive
to kow that
to know that life is flowing through me
to

continue feeling the feeling of knowing
choose the feeling of knowing
knowing

something
knowing anything choose the
feeling of knowing
choose the feeling the
choose the feeling

thank you thank you
for this here and now
for this life it feel sogo

good to feel good to let go
to releaes and
just allow myself
to celebrate now

it feels good to allow myself to
celebrate now to feel the feeling
to

take the emotional journey to know
this is the only work it feels good to remember th

this is the only work
it feels good to remember this is
the only work

it’s only ever the connection with the knowledge
so grateful for the ins and outs of life
that allow me to focus
that allow me to kow th

to know the truth of who i am
so grateful for the ins and out so

of life that remind me who and wha
i am
so grateful i know that truth
to life
i kno th

the

i know the truth of life i know the
truth of life e
i know

i know the

truth of life

and i’ma llow

allowing that truth to flow
through me

i know i get to choose how i feel
i get to allow the muck

the muck of life to flow off of
me to leave me and
i get to embrace
the perfect

lace of the soul
i embrace

i know the truth of life
i know the truth of life

i get to decide my truth
i get to decide mmy life
it get

i get to feel good
so grateful for the contrast that

helps me remember who iam
that helps me reconnce

ect

reconnect to feel at ease
in my life it feels good to
feel at ease in my life to feel the

ease and flow of life to feel good today
to do the work today to say
thank you to say thank you for the fow
it
the flow it feels good to say
thank you for the flow for the flow
of life flowing through me

it feels good to know

it feels good to know it feels good to know
it feels

good to know it feels good to know
i

it feels good to connect to version
i prefer and feel for it
it feels good to connect to the version i prefer
and feel for it

it feels to connect to
connect to connect
to connect

to connect ot

to let go fo the
of the rest

of the rest

it feels good to remember who i am
to celebrate summer to celebrate the flow
to love life
it feels good
to love life it feels good

to love life to love
life to

love the flow to feel the releae to

to jump into life it feels good t
o
to say yes to everything that is
that is to a

to allow myself to grow and stretch
and feel the fullnes of life
to feel the

gratitude

for life
it feels good to feel the gratitude

for life

feel

i feel for the version i prefer

i say yes to the version i prefer
i say yes
to the version i prefer
i say

yes to the version i prefer
i say yes to the version
i prefer
ia llow

i allow

i allow the version i prefer i
allow the version i prefer i a

i’m here i’m here i’m here and
the
here and now
i know who i am
i know aht i

what i am
i know what i am
and it feels good

to let go of the
rest

it feels good
to let go

of the
rest

i have to keep up the good work
the work for me i have to keepup t
up the good work because what good does it do

to feel bad what good does it do to feel bad
none
it just adds to the pain so today i will
accept

i have to accept so i will and that’s all i can do i know that
all i can do is accept what is allow what is
i can always allow

what is i can always allow what is
and i know that by doing this work i

by doing this workk i help
i help the most because i connect
with source energy i connect with the knowledge
i connect with the kknowledge
i connect with the knkowledge
knowledge
i connect with the knowledge

and that’s all i can do to help
is connect with the knowledge
all i can do to help
is connect with the knowledge
all i an do

is allow all i can do is allow
all i can do is accept allow myself
to feel bad even

just allow it just allow it
and allow life to flow through me
allow life to flow through me

allow myself to live

fully

ntohing
nothing helps really nothing helps
nothing
helps there’s absolutely

nothing i can do there’s nothing i can do
but just e just allow all i can do is allow ia

all i can do

is allow all i can
do is

i don’t even want to do this work
because i feel bad i feel bad

trying to feel good why should i get to feel good
why should i get to enjoy my life my blessings

my partner who i love why should i get all that

its not fair
for me to feel good when
others are suffering

but what good does my suffering do
my suffering doesn’t

make things better
my suffering doesn’t make things
better

it only adds to the pain
more pain doesn’t take away the pain

im’ ust
i’m just so mad

so fed up with life
like why

what is the point its pointless its dumb

i never really understood suicidal people before
like how could their life be that bad but
i now undersgtand that it’s probably

more just about being
fed up with everything
the pointlessness

the constantness
of the pain

one thing after another
like why what is the oint
we’re all going to die anyway

why not make it now
an
avoid all the inevitable pain
of the future
and for what

what is event h p
the point of trying to feel better

i guess becuase feeling bad sucks
and i know

it is optional
but it doesn’t feel optional
it feels

necessary

becuae i feel guilty
enjoying life
when others can’t

better not to feel at all i suppose
opt out

just sit beneath
the sea

beneath the see as i originally typed

at the lowest point
and just allow life
to flow over you
on top of you and
remain motionless

floating beneath the
bullshit

but whats the point