i’m here doing the work
milking the feeling saying fuck yeah
to life i’m here milking the feeling
saying fuck yeah to life
i’m here doing the work
saying fuck yeah to life it feels good
to say yes to remember
what i’m capable of to remember this is my only work
i know this is the only work
this is the only work that matters and it feels good
to do this work
to go within for the sake of doing it
to practice it to know wha it f
it feels like to know tht
that there is more to life than just
the here and now
i’ve been working with my ingrained white supremacy
lately
you’re not supposed to talk about it
publicly but i don’t see this as very public
and this is how i journal
so this is where i’m going to talk about it
and one day when people read my journals and learn my
from my life experience
i think it will be good for them to read about the
work i do to unpack socially ingrained racism
the first step im taking which i’m still
in is just becoming conscious off the ways
that i am subconsciously racist
and also trying to become aware of
when i benefit from white privilege
it’s a lot and it is very sad and depressing
to think that people are treated as less than
because of how they are born
and that you play a role in that because of how you
were born
so as much as poc have to deal with racism their whole lives
white people should do it too
because it does speak to the greater
collective consciousness
that racism is ingrained and if you’re going to help the world
ascend
then racism is one of the primary things that needs to be addressed
we can’t ascend when others are repressed
while ingrained white supremacy exists
we can’t take the leap as a society
so to help society
white people especially must begin
tearing down white supremacy
it exists and it is in every white person
whether they like it or want to admit it
it is there
ok enough on that for now
i can see why you’re not supposed to talk about it publicly
it sounds very much like
look what i’m doing
see i’m not bad i’m doing it i’m acknowledging it look at me kind of thing
which is not my goal
this is my journal
i believe in sharing journals
that’s why mine is public and i think it helps people
and while i understand that telling others about it
seems like white saviorism or something that’s not my intent
it’s just to share my process with others
so that maybe they may learn something from
my process
my own unpacking
not that this is very public anyway
like i said
i’m here doing the only work
and that is part of that work now
i’m here doing the only work
which is the work with
the work
the work within the work of connecting
the work of letting go the work
of being aware who i am
who i really am the work
of cous
focus that is what i truly crave
the work of focus it feels good to focus
here and the here and now it feels good to
focus on
my energy on one point instead
of feeling it scatter all around
exhuasting me
it feels good to allow my best self to
it feels good to remember the power of me
to remember who i am to remember what the only work
is it feels good
to do the only work
it feels good to
do the only work
it feels good to
feel good it feels good
to feel good it feels good
to feel good it feels good to
feel good to focus in the
here and now it feels good
to focus in there and now
and know that with focus
solutions always come
it feels good to get int he vor
the vortex and then
and know that my only uob
job
is to surrender to the here and now
the divine consciousness that i am
is forever expressing its true nature of abundance
this is its responsibility
not mine
m on
my only responsibility
is to be aware of this truth
thereofre i am totally confident
in letting go
andl etting
letting god
appear as the abundant
all sufficiency
in my life a
and affairs
i’m here doing the work
i’m doing the work
i’m
doing the work for me i’m doing the
work for me
i know i can do it i know wh i a
who i am
i know i am the one and only creaor
creator of my reality i love that life
causes me to ask i am here doing the work
i’m here to connect to the truth
to realx
relax into sleep feeling waves of relief knowing that
i am the one and only creator of my life experience
which brings up another thing about the racism
because if is in my subconscious
like it is in all white people
then we are continuing to subconsciously
perpetuate that paradigm
even though it is not conscious
or malicious
it is still being created
by ingrained subconscious beliefs
and that is why it is so
important to bring that to light
so that we can start to
change the beliefs
fromthe core
change the conditioning
because if you don’t
you are still
committing racist acts
even if subconsciously
i’m here to
release it all
release the resistance
and feel love
love for myself
love for all
love for everything that
is i’m
here to feel good and
enjoy life number one
and that comes from
extending love to all things
and making the choice to
feel love in every moment
i love that life is good in
every moment i love
that life is good in every moment
i love allowing myself to love
allowingm y heart
to sing i l
i love allowing my heart to sing
i love knowing that
the
work is always here the work is always here
the work
is